This morning as I sat in my bed
I reflected upon what I wanted to ask of God;
Made a list of things to inquire
Boy, was my mind filled with glee at the things I longed to have
“God, deliver to me a car–black, shiny and beautiful
Or perhaps flowers…yeah, a lush and abundant garden,
filled with herbs, vegetables, and fruit of diverse assortment
Oh God, bring me a wondrous family!
Connections and intimacy flowing with love, laughter, and divinity
Though wait…what of my job?
Oh yes, please give me a career that I LOVE
Receiving wealth through my creations!”
And as the list carries on and on
I know by His infinite abundance and Mercy– He gives
But satisfaction evades me
Even after receiving what I prayed for
So…a new list is made: this time longer, more specific
Nevertheless, The One gives
For He is the one who hears and replies with bounty
And still, satisfaction escapes me
Have I asked for too much?
Maybe I did not ask for the right things?
Spent with exhaustion and confusion
I lay on the ground, basking in stillness
Letting my ego wander as it creates bigger lists,
Images of what may satisfy me
Releasing tension and exhaustion
Breathing through each spent muscle
Finally, she stills
A small voice whispers “…Are you there?”
“This life is full of glitter and gold,
And while The One is The best of givers, The most Compassionate
I truly long for contentment,
Ease, love and peace”
Things are things and can be stolen
Sold, cheapened or broken
But peace is acquired,
A gift that can be experienced in any circumstance;
In poverty, richness, aloneness or company
A gift that many of us lack,
Misunderstand or comprehend how to attain
So, The One…
Thank you for all that you have given
Thank you for continuing to give
I am humbled, full of gratitude
Today, I do not desire objects that only exaggerate emptiness
But for the endowment of true knowing,
Unwavering peace of mind,
Purity of heart,
And most importantly– ease
The home in which all hearts truly seek
Genuinely Jannah 