It’s odd
Odd really
Old pictures resurface in places I’d thought I’d kept hidden
Was it unconscious? Perhaps intentionally
You know time beckons us to transform swiftly
I’ve sowed my seeds, watched the fruit grow
Eaten Gods blessings, adapt as seasons come and go
Made new friends, made love with new lovers
Learned new tricks to show both under and outside of the covers
Created a new self, one who knows her worth—
What does she want? Who is she?
Lets explore her joys and let go of old hurts
This ole girl approaching 30—you start thinking about life more clearly
“Let’s pool together finances, create a career that feels good and affords us stability”
There’s no love now that could ever make me forget about me
Clearer on who I am more than I’ve ever been
Peace makes me hesitant to let just any ole person in
So clear, yes that I am…until I saw your smile
Wow…That’s something I hadn’t seen in a while
It looks different than how it used to be, more genuine, more relaxed, more…free
Different than how it was when it was with me
Listen—yes I’m grateful that time has healed our wounds, made us stronger
But isn’t it odd how time has moved connections that don’t sustain themselves any longer?
And that distance; it doesn’t take away the love in my heart
It’s stays as if no time has been lost, with no end and no start
And what an odd place to be—looking at who I am compared to who we were
But love exists beyond time and truly does endure
How bittersweet to recognize change that brings both loss and movement so swiftly
Even more bittersweet to acknowledge that loss happened to be the thing that set us free
I will love you always truly, my love does soar
But space has taught inevitably to love myself more.
Thank you for the lessons and all the sweet memories
Thank you for the blessings that brought me to clarity
Love stands as a reflection of God’s eternity
Love will always be a reflection of the Divine within me
Genuinely Jannah 