Screams from the Silent

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At times I feel meekly paralyzed
Covering my face at the shame of gruesome deeds
If one could perhaps rip the blindfold from their heart
Lay each story onto a scale and measure them
They’d be horrified at the punchlines we’ve been sold;
One man with limbs marred by pavements heat in the scorching summer
Somewhere near 96th Street
Onlookers watch gazes filled of disgust
And I, I disappear into the crowd
Stomach full of lead
Or perhaps the woman with two children
One upright, one decrepit
As she stumbles up and down flights with purse, babe and stroller in hand
Mere seconds from plunging to her demise
But her worry is with is the place she needs to go,
the mouths she need to feed,
the work she must return to
Never mind patrons passing idly along stairs until she trips on the first child,
Another rushing to grasp the falling carriage from her hands
As she tumbles down 8 flights, child firmly clasped to her chest
Woe to these current times—
Profit at the demise of our brothers
Without the means to purchase tombstones for graveyards
While others are sipping from gold plated cups
Until one sees the face of God within themselves
It is hard to see God in the needy man with burnt limbs;
The wailing child dangling from the mother’s arms;
The man on Wall Street stuffing his mouth with gold
I am horrifically guilty—
Wishing for the return of my innocence

 

The Empty

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Take a moment to empty yourself

Release all identities

All perceptions

Become like a child

Open in its awareness

Curious to what God has to offer it

All that it knows is its knowing

Its seeing

Its hearing

Empty yourself of yourself

Turn to God and seek Him in silence

Immerse yourself in the depths

Cleanse your being

Empty your vessel of all that it cant contain

All that distorts reality

All the is subjective in nature

Turn to nature and seek thyself

Oh, once you empty yourself

You will find God lingering in the containment of your being

Pulsations in the Abyss

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Please take care of me

I want you mentally, physically

Deep inside of me

As skin touches

Until breath evades us

Until you don’t know where you end and I begin

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Sensations of nails dragging across your skin

Soft, sweet kisses

Long pauses

Seduction

Eroticism

Tantric love

Pulsating deep within the abyss

Praying to God as tears fall up toward the heavens

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Pushing, pulling

Tasting salty-sweet liquid running down luminous valleys

Grasping on to clumps of feathers

Praying to swallow the moment alive

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Take care of me…

Mentally, emotionally, spiritually

I honestly cant even put into words–

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Dragging and pulling at flesh

Sinking into deep waters

Gently opening the folds of each petal

Teasing honey from beneath the leaves

The wind carrying our cries to God

For the freedom of death

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Circling tiny knots of ecstasy

Building pressure

Dragging, pulling, bones kissing bones

A whisper– “Dear God

Flesh caught between teeth

Nipping at the base of veins

Blood boiling, straining

Tangled in a web of stiches

Clinging onto each-others wings

Until we reach the top

..and leap from the heavens into the greatest crescendo

Propelling into oblivion

Finding freedom in release

Holy Grounds of Symphony

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As crystal clear as the truth is;

You’d think I’d freely immerse myself in its depths

But I’ve been dancing in a whirlwind of drama for ages,

Eons it seems

Searching for one who’s step is in sync with my own

At first we march to the beat of the drum

Twirl in each others arms

Open up our wings to the sky and set off on our flights

The harshness of the wind causes us to vanish

Feathers scuffled in the freight of the storm

Each time, The One nurtures

Encouraging a new step,

A new dance

Marching once again to the symphony of hearts

Whirling my hips round and round

Enticing, calling, seducing

he watches the dance with a gaze of curiosity

Longing and passion

Meeting me halfway matching each step melodramatically

Praying to capture

To engulf

To possess

Each one circling one another, waiting to pounce

Too soon…we encounter destruction

Jumping off the edge, plunging to equal depths

What good is the dance if it does not end in harmony?

In laughter, in intimacy, in flow

As I float in the earths wetness

Confounded and oh so weary

Salt nurses each wounds to bind

God leads me to the earth

Sets us me up on my knee’s

And whispers “practice makes the moves perfect,

But love makes the dance appreciated

I’ve taught you each step so that they all lead to me;

What other gift need you then this?”

Overcome with arousal for tango’s uncherished

I release all presumption, intending to find my own rhythm

My arms moving,

hips circling,

smile beaming

As the ocean washes up my shoes

Beckoning to begin the dance once again

Memorial

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Can you believe

That in the totality of my existence

There are moments of disconnection

Distractions

When I forget Gods name

The One permitted my lungs to breathe

Dragging air in and out of my being

And in those distractions

I seemingly crack the code

Finding life’s meaning

Turning to the mirror to look inward;

In those moments

Of disconnection

In the deepest discord

I look to my job;

My money, my family, my lovers

Searching for my muse

Beautiful distractions, are they not?

But distractions are distractions

Please tell me,

What fool looks at the stars and says,

“Yes! This is worthy of all my worship and devotion”

For who’s the creator of the stars?

And what romantic looks at another person,

And says;

“I can’t live without you. I will die without you”

I’m sorry

If there is one thing life continuously shows me

Again and again

I can exist without money, clothing, shelter

But I can not- for the life of me

Exist without The One

Loving me

Nurturing me

Providing for me

In the deepest parts of me

The greatest love story there will ever be

The One and me