In Stillness with The One

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At times–

I’m not sure how I get there,

Unsure of where I end

Or where He begins

I just know that He lies inside

Waiting to be discovered

In truth: He is a part of me

And I, derived from Him

There is no separation–

There is no loss

In the midst of quiet

Or as the birds continue chirping,

the rustling of the wind through leaves,

tree’s that sustain my being

I breathe in heavens air

Attaining the smallest taste of The One

Filled with awe and amazement–

My ego is stunned, only able to whisper

“I know. I worship. I love,

Know. Worship. Love

Knowing. Worshiping. Love”

God. The One. The Truth.

That moment when I settle into my being

And my heart is filled to its contents

My eyes, wet with tears

Filled with ease, joy, and love

All I can taste on the flesh of my lips

The One. The One. The One.

At times

I swear… I’m astounded that I’m allowed to get here

When I’m not sure where I end

Or where He begins

All I know;

All I worship;

All I love;

The One–

For in you is where I find my remembrance

The Seekers Journey

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There is much beauty in this world

The clear, blue sky, clouds as they assemble-

stars & connecting constellations

Yet, my heart can’t help but ponder

“Who is the Master of it all?”

We’ve searched for eons

Destroying cities, dissecting books

Gazing into the eyes of suitors, coming up with no answers

We search and search

Until we abandon our quest

And the meaning escapes us

Frustrated with longing,

now cheated into a deep stupor

We were created to be adaptable

To endure,

To grow and build our tolerance,

And comprehend that time is fleeting

Understand that suffering is a choice

And, ultimately, peace is our goal

We are finite

Malleable

Constantly changing

But the one thing has never changed

Across time, space and dimensions

Amidst the rustling of our souls, restless

Eager to get back home

Weary of enduring the fog

Of being a character in this video game

With faith and timidity, she inquires

“Where is purification?”

“Where is rest?”

“We need ease and relief…its all we’ve been yearning for”

As time passes and the search endures

The seeker gains insight into what she has been hunting

The answers which she seeks lie in hearts endowed with purity

For remembrance is and will always be our home

So purge yourself of illusions

Delusions, doubt

Lies and deceit

Then fly up to the heavens

Our home, the beginning, and the end-

Our divine birthright

Tales of Remembrance

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Some days I’m torn

Struggling to keep myself above high tides

Pulling and tugging me deep into the depths

And though I never learned how to swim

The One has taught me how to move my arms,

To paddle and kick my legs

To come up for air

To cry for help

To call out to Him

Until a wave bigger than I can save myself from

Plunges me into the depths I’ve been fighting

Forcing me underneath the rush of water

Filling my lungs with salty liquid

Until I can hardly breathe

And darkness is all that I know

But… miraculously I grow fins

Scales on my arms, gills around my throat

I open my eyes and take in a fresh breath

Transformation embedded, Newness engulfing me

And The One laughs at my ignorance;

Why struggle to fight the tides that inevitably nurture you?

Bringing us back to wholeness

We have forgotten our core, our essence, our home

But luckily the waves are quick to remind us

No matter how much we struggle, how much we try to control

Letting go has the scary feeling of chaos;

Fear.

Death.

Surrender.

And then finally, bliss.

Love letters to Heaven…

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You are the light of my life. You are strong. So beautiful- inside and out. I love you for your resilience. I love you for your depths. You look to see, to feel, to know the core of every soul that you meet. For that, I am grateful. You often have a million things on your mind, tasks to complete, people to help and you are unsure of where to begin. At times this keeps you from starting anywhere at all. Do not let the fear of not being good enough, not being heard keep you from accepting who you are today. Time inevitably makes you recreate yourself over and over again. Remember, nothing in this life is fixed. Things are constantly moving, constantly changing. You are unsure of what tomorrow holds – you barely even know what will unfold today. That is okay. Leave the future up to God. It is His work to do and His only. Continue to pray; even when things are at its best. Continue to imagine and dream because The One knows you are a powerful creator and your thoughts can come to fruition. You are a co-creator with the Master of this Universe. That in itself is a gift that He has given to you. Continue to work. Even when no one gives you credit. You have God-given gifts, talents and although you know you have them, others may not see it in you. That doesn’t matter either – as long as you see it in yourself.

You are something special and everyone who knows you knows IT. From that seductive look in your eyes to your big hair, your long eyelashes and tiny frame to your soothing soul and big heart- yes love, you are special indeed. A gift from the God above, proof that He is real. Proof that He is good. Proof that He is love. And you came from Him so you are love as well. This can never be stolen from you. It is your essence. Even when others tell you how wrong you are. Even when you doubt or you question. Truth, often cannot be understood from the mouth but felt in the heart. It lies in between the heavens and the earth. In God’s knowing. So you are love. And love is you. And there is no separation, only the one that you perceive which is your greatest error. You are a creator. You are a writer. A healer. A lover. A daughter. A sister. An auntie. A best friend. A teacher. A student. You are whole. You are here. You are. And I’m so blessed that I get to play this role of you in this lifetime and hopefully into the next.

Romance, Love, and Aloneness

“Never treat any person as a means. Treat everybody as an end in himself, in herself—then you don’t cling, then you are not attached. You love, but your love gives freedom—and, when you give freedom to the other, you are free. Only in freedom does your soul grow.” Love, Freedom, Aloneness: The Koan of Relationships: Osho

In a culture that proclaims to be vastly individualistic—romantic relationships have quickly become the overall goal for acquiring love, commitment, and acceptance. While love in itself is a wonderful feeling and emotion, the apparent stressed importance of experiencing love through romantic relationships seems to be a bit exaggerated. For decades, the mentality of ‘finding one’s other half’ has been marketed and sold to the masses. Books, movies and social media (a.k.a ‘relationship goals’) serve to reemphasize this apparent importance of ‘finding your other half’. However, something that is even more important than securing a romantic relationship is nurturing the relationship with ourselves.

When we talk about looking for our “better half”, we subconsciously enable this idea that wholeness relies upon someone else. While love is integral to our being, it does not only lie within the confines of a romantic relationship. Wholeness, as well as love, is self-made. When we are able to maintain this truth— that we came into this earth as fully whole and capable beings- the search stops for someone or something else to complete us. Time has proven again and again that no amount of external validation, gifts or people will mask how we feel about ourselves internally. A person can love us with everything they have but it will never amount as much to us loving ourselves.

Furthermore, when we sit in our wholeness we are able to accept being alone. Aloneness is not to be confused with loneliness. Loneliness speaks of lack; feeling that something is missing or being incomplete. Very often, loneliness is the feeling that one runs away from when they are in futile search of something external to complete them. Aloneness, however, is maintaining personal individuality, love, presence and being. When one sits in their aloneness, their validation, love, and wholeness come from within- from the acceptance of who they are, the enjoyment of what they like and knowledge of simply being enough. When a person is able to come to this remembering- that they always have been and are whole, then those proceeding relationships come from choice and not a necessity. This means that if someone is not treating us the way we deserve to be treated, we leave. Being alone isn’t a threat to our happiness, not honoring ourselves is. If someone not in alignment with us and our path, we bid them farewell and wish them the best. Life is a journey for each of us so why would we knowingly restrict someone else’s or even our own experience and growth?

Going through the process of nurturing ourselves, sitting in aloneness and embracing our wholeness allows for the most beautiful of relationships to form: the one with ourselves. When a partner does show up—just as whole and loving—one gets to experience a love that is not based on conditions of filling a void but is fulfilling, nurturing and free.