Reflections on Governors Island

In this world full of mirrors
How clearly does one see themselves
Entertaining copious illusions,
Praying to find comfort by fostering absentmindedness

As clocks tick—
Seconds turning to hours,
Hours to years
Treading closer to ultimate demise
Oneself is a testament to the deaths that occur each moment

This endless search for innocence
In cloves of recollections
But when peering deeply
Reality is none were ever innocent

One can suppose,
Maturity is a shattering of illusions
Calling the soul to witness the horrors of itself
In crystal clear mirrors

Shattered Reflections

In the image of your reflection,

we’d find shattered mirror pieces —

glass poking out the frame’s tension.

Rushing to clear the mess I’d nicked my finger in.

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Blood flowing on marble floors —

startled, dazed, a bit unsure.

Its presence ricocheting like a gunshot, point-blank;

dreams crumbling, jolting us all awake.

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Throbbing pulsations remind me

of its existence —

lies shattering the world once created.

Beautiful illusions leading one to quietly wonder,

“What was real? What was fake?”

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Did I mistrust my judgment?

Was my intuition offline?

Yes — I’m God’s child, emboldened with the divine —

yet divinity became stripped bare in deceit;

half-truths, manipulations, and betrayal all meet.

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Cowardice is one’s own personal hell.

Frozen in time and space, inaction becomes a choice itself.

Small internal voices whisper, “What’s wrong with me?”

Shame becoming an insidious, contagious disease.

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In the fractal pieces, we witness a thousand reflections —

one face here, another there — infinite ways of deception.

Mirrors culminating truth that can hardly hide,

showing the fragility of the Self inside.

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Time passes,

and the finger generates skin cells to mend

all the pieces the mirror tried to end,

scars remaining as a lesson of the horrors when

lies become the identity we live in.

Not Digestible

I am not digestible

Not sweet tea with 

Four cups of sugar and a squeeze of lemon

Helping the medicine go down

She’s full bodied gin

Swallowed with a hymn and a prayer

Praying the demons don’t win 

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Full bodied convulsions

Chanting to avoid shattering into pieces prematurely 

Leaving me high and dry

A trip cancelled just as the tickets were purchased

Seats booked

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An orgasm right there…no damnit right there

Beads on foreheads bubble as we seek to match 

Tempos shifting in rushed, frantic pace

Impatience snatching sweet release, disappointment on my face

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Brimming with wanton in a cup overflowed

Where the fuck is the ecstasy I’m owed?

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Not digestible

Not here to soothe brows with

Gentle balming caresses

Cute little nothings that leave my body hallowed and wanting

Screaming to be filled

Please fill me up with something

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Not meant for overconsumption

Pick my flowers intentionally,

or the thorns might bite

Blood drops like sweet reparations 

For raping my petals 

To steal my light

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Treat me delicately

Hold on to subtle curves with a feather light touch

Before the dove takes flight again

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Experience is the teacher 

That reminds us

How bittersweet moments are 

Before they reach their end

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I’m not here to be digested.

Nor consumed 

Ask those who have passed by

Memorials for all the empty rooms

Forsaken without my presence.

Never able to be digested.

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But I—

I’m the perfect size. Perfect shape

Perfect volume. Perfect taste

Absolutely holy. Utterly whole

Goddess woman with a whole lot of soul

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Not swallowed hastily

but sipped in reverence

Eyes closed, head tipped back 

In drunken presence 

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Frighteningly ethereal. Deeply divine

Internal medicine

So irrevocably moving

It became my deliverance 

10 Years of Longing

Times passing idly

Beckoning me to make my peace

Is it that I see your face

My heart confounding itself trying to match your beat

Do we miss each other coincidentally?

Or was it that once we fit perfectly, 

Like a puzzle piece

Only now to fall into the trashes debris-

Chipped and out of shape

Unable to fit fully

Has the tale of “the one that got away” stolen our stability?

Nights of longing with partners lying beside both you and me

Drawn into a hazy dream of what used to be

Has life has lost is lustre and presence?

Its golden glitter turned into a sinners heaven

Using sex as a pawn to meet in the depths

And emotional distance to shield our hearts from what comes next

There’s something about this story that makes it so difficult to complete

Even with the impossibility of finding equal ground to meet

Timings off, no wait, persons wrong

Like falling crescendo’s and flat notes in an old song

Gone are the days where we used to dance together right on beat

Stories of yesterday building the foundation where we meet

But yesterday is gone and tomorrow waits for no one

Holding the reality that this songs chorus will inevitebly be done

Can this love transform, grow and finally meet?

Or will times departure force this love train to leave?

In this space of mystery and wonder, allow our hearts to fill in the beats

And perhaps we might lead our own paths to finally make our peace..

An Ode to Self-Love

Multilayered
Complex
Hauntingly beautiful
Full of grace
If only one could capture,
Secure it
Hide it in plain sight
Or perhaps lock away in a dungeon
I hid her away for ages
Fearful of desecration
Resenting the worlds brutality
In truth, she deserves all of the roses
Molten-led whispers along her spine
Sweet kisses, foot massages
Divinity in the arch of every limb
Basking in her sublime time
As fine as well-aged wine
Sipping from her lips, I find my peace
Oh, this deeply-rooted woman
Her cries are my anguish
Her heart my salve
Peaking into the heavens I capture her grace
Teasing her light, balancing unconditional rapture on slick fingertips
Then shoving fingertips down her throat
She bursts into a symphony of luminous rays
When they saw black and white
She saw the world in color
A special woman, the feminine, the anima,
Yin
The Great Mother
Heaven!
The root, so deeply rooted
Attempting to siphon her light—she forever remains luminous
She brings weakness to my knees;
Clearing my minds eye
Easing my soul
The embodiment of heaven—
Love without the illusion of control